You had me at "Hello." ;D

Well.
I know I haven't been on in like FOREVER.
And I apologize.
But, yeah.
My boyfriend of one year and 3 months broke up with me a few days ago.
Wanna know how he did it?
Through a note -.-
The coward wouldn't even say it to my face...
I'm kind of unsettled.
I haven't been single in a while, and it just seems weird.
I'm so confused, but I'm not at the same time, which just makes me even more confused o-o
He says he just wants to be friends and everything but he deleted me from his friends list.
He blocked my phone number.
I'm very tempted to just walk over to his house and talk to him there.
If he's gonna avoid me I'll do anything I possibly can to get to him.
He shaved his head.
So that's probably another reason why he broke up with me.
Because He thought I was going to make fun of him.
He asked out a girl after he broke up with me.
He doesn't like white girls, so he broke up with me.
Which I find extremely irritating.
Not because the girl he asked out was black, but because he's being a douche about it.
I don't know if I should make him feel jealous or what.
Where did I go wrong?
I never did anything to him.
I gave him my everything.
I put up with him while he was in a mental hospital.
I went 11 days without knowing where he was, or if he was okay.
I covered for him when he was doing something he wasn't supposed to.
And now he's telling everyone how I'm a horrible person, and how I've been very disrespectful, and have been ruining everything for him.
He's been telling everyone that I treated him like sh!t even though we hadn't spoken to each other in about 8 days because he was at his friend's house.
He also said in the note: "I used to really like you, but for the past few months I've stopped."
That means for a few months, he'd been lying to me.
Telling me he loved me.
I don't think he loved me for a while.
I don't know if I love him anymore either.
I'm glad though.
Now I can tell someone when I find them attractive, or tell someone that I have a crush on them.
I don't know who I'm going after first though.
I'm tied between a few people.
But hopefully I'll get over this soon.
Hopefully.

Okay...
John's in a mental hospital for depression, anxiety, self harm, suicidal thoughts, past abuse, and a few other things.
I'm so scared...
I've been crying too much, and my eyes just hurt.
At first he didn't want to tell me...
But he came to school on tuesday and he told me...
At first, he didn't go to school for 11 days because he was in there and didn't tell me anything...
Then on tuesday he came to school, and now he's back again...

D: I cried a lot during this show
It was SO sad :CC
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Okay, I know it's been awhile since I've been online and all. But still
I have a boyfriend still, His name is John.
Today, is our One Year anniversary.
But he can't be here with me...
His mother and father are divorced, and share custody.
He's at his dad's house this weekend.
I really hoped we could go to the Peanut Parade/Festival today. Together.
It's kind of sad. :\
I wish he could be here with me. I only get to hang out with him every other weekend.
We have classes together in school, but because school is so closely monitored we can't do anything showing "PDA" (Public display of affection) Even girls can hug each other without having to go to ISS (In school suspension)
I really miss him. Last night was a dance, and I decided to pull a prank on one of my guy friends. I told him that John and I broke up. (Even though we didn't really break up) and He asked me to the dance. I told him no, but we're really good friends and all and we hurt eachother sometimes just to be funny. He said, "Oh, you want to go to the dance with me." And I said, "No, not really" And he pinched my arm fat and told me I was going with him, so I was like, Okay.
Eventually he stopped hanging out with me and hung out with his football friends.
So I went and I hung out with some of my fellow band friends. A tuba player and a saxophone player, and the tuba player's neighbor.
Eventually we got bored so we started playing truth or dare. Well, I started off doing little dares, and then it got to, "Go hit that guys butt and walk away like nothing happened," Or, "Tell that girl she looks sexy, and grab her butt" Stuff like that, which I was like, Okay fine I guess.
Then my friend got dared to kiss me...
I'm dating someone though. And they didn't care. We were in a big group of people, and Everyone saw. So. That sucks. I indirectly cheated on John even though I honestly didn't want to.
At the end of the dance, the guy that kissed me told me he liked me.
So.
Yeah.
I just needed to get all of that out of my system.